what's normal?

7th september 2010
someone help me. i think i've forgotten what normal is. i can't remember a time before this. things have changed like i now eat about 200 calories at school and a 300 calorie dinner rather than before in england when i only ate a 200 calorie meal. i wish i could go back to not having to count every fucking calorie i put in my body, and then feel guilty afterwards. well, i guess you can't have everything i guess.