i love you (L)

i love you. i'm inspired by you. seriously, i know it's been hard but i'm dead glad you're recovering now. i mean i know you've tried recovery before, and failed/given up cz you thought you were too fat but i promise you i'm behind you all the way. you deserve this. i know it may sound hyppocritical coming from me as i'm not recovering, and think you should but i don't care.

i love you, and am glad you're acting healthy around food. i'm glad you're not purging, or at least trying not to. i'm glad you're getting support in your recovery. i'm glad you think you're worth it. and finally, i'm glad that you're determined. i wish i had the motivation, help and support you do, but i don't. i'm inspired by you.

i just hope that one day, hopefully soon you'll be able to look in the mirror and confidently, without lying behind a fake smile say that you're happy with the way you look. and that you're not fat. because babes, you're not fat now. those numbers on the scale don't rule your world, they shouldn't.

i'm glad that you seem happier, and more relaxed around certain things, having gained some confidence, no matter how small it is. i'm glad that you don't carry a toothbrush when you go out, that you've stopped cutting and purging. i really am.

i wish you the best of luck, have fun with your friends. to hell with this shit, be yourself, have fun, live your life like you want to. not by this shit. i love you shannice. forever. <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx